XAVIEEERRRRR..!!!

2011-05-18T18:07:00.001+08:00

Why why am i so dumb .
Sigh . I didnt mean those words . really .
I can't live without u . without u my life is really nothing .
i really hope wad u said was jus to spite me .
I'm begging u , without u my life will hit rock bottom .
i really wan to spend my life and every second of my time with u .
take care of u , be there for u whenever u need someone .
i really really do .
u mean the world to me .
your my everything .
I wanna have those times when we watch movies , hold hands together , tease each other , pretend to be angry with each other . going to the zoo , seeing your favourite elephant . hug u to sleep with scrump with us . sigh .
u mean that much to me every second i spent with u i will never forget . ily.

2011-05-06T19:26:00.002+08:00

I'm back after much thinking .
I finally thought of it .
If making a wrong move here , i know i will definitely regret and be sorry bout it .
Though i'm smiling my heart is crying , i think you might be suffering alot too .
I'm telling myself i will be happy much happier .
But my heart tells me i'm lying to it and doesn't want to listen.
So the truth is , your still loved really .

2011-03-23T18:44:00.001+08:00

I have pressured u too much .
I guess it's my fault ,
damnit i'm real sorry .
I will give u some time to cool down .
Ultimately i know i have broken your trust and your heart , guess ur sad and disappointed at me right now , i only have myself to blame .
When u finally cool down feel better and can give me a chance to talk to u , do let me know , love u deeply . Remember to eat and tc of ur health .

2011-03-23T11:47:00.003+08:00

Today when i saw u , i so wanted to say something to u , so wanna talk to u .
I really missed u , really rather be the one suffering than u , pains me to know your upset .
If only if only i could take your pain and suffering away from u and put it upon me .
My love is for u is just love , it can never be explained .
Even if u choose to go through everything by yourself i will always be there even it means lurking in the shadows i will support u from anywhere i am at .
I told u before u are never alone i will be with u no matter what , you let me know what it means to truly love someone , to want to do anything for her , your that girl.
Your the one i look upon perfectly , i hope u get well soon . ily

2011-03-22T12:32:00.003+08:00

Sigh .
Finished duty at 830.
First went to buy food and went down to look for u but i guess god just likes to make a joke out of me .
How how someone teach me , i really need u.
Like how a child needs her mother , your my everything.
i really wan to be with u ,
touch my heart and swear to god ,
i love u and i really need u.
Hope u get well soon , take care of your health.
My perfect sky is torn.

2011-03-21T17:53:00.003+08:00

Today is gonna be a long day for me .
Having duty soon ~,~
I know your going through alot right now , many things are happening unexpectedly
What happened ? Let me know what happened exactly .
If i did anything wrong or not up to expectation u can let me know .
I know i might not show u concern at times , but the fact is i really do care and concern about u .
Really .
I know i text u some harsh words , i'm sorry about it i truely am .
Sincerly touching the bottom of my heart , ily .

2011-03-04T20:07:00.001+08:00

Gonna wait for my shift for duty .
Today not meeting dearest cuz of duty ._.
sigh damn sad.

Am i treating u badly? i wonder >:

2011-02-14T20:28:00.002+08:00

Today early morning wake up .
Went with bro to his workplace collect 'mehmeh'
Den went home put wan suprise darling wif 'mehmeh' de
Fetch darling the time her eyes swollen walaooooo :(
took bus to my hse take bag and 'mehmeh'
Chee ! Honhon make me carry 'mehmeh' til reach cinema hand tired laaa ~!
Ate lunch at mac .
Watched Green hornet was okok uh , Jay Chou english damn weak =p
Den send darling to mrt .
Now msn-ing wif her ^^
Love u bibi <3

2011-01-19T20:20:00.002+08:00

Today is a yet another boring day in camp , damnit seriously damn bored .
Was gonna take my off on wed to fri but too much work , so couldn't take my off .
Sianzation , now in camp using com , watching tv .
Miss my girlfriend so much ! >.<
Can't wait for friday , can see my girlfriend again <:

2010-12-28T21:58:00.002+08:00

Been super long since i last posted .
Currently in camp using com , nothing to do all alone in camp , rest clearing leave ><
Miss my girlfriend so much yet i still have friday duty >: Life is so unfair .
Honey ,
We dwell on the past, while living the present
But I admit, the past was unpleasant
Full of ups and downs, less pleasure more pain
We wished for the sun, but only got rain
We both made mistakes, put pain in our hearts
But here we are again, promising to never part
Counting our blessings and letting go of the past
Starting all over and making it last
Feelings and memories flow deep in my mind
Of those days our love was genuine and kind
Holding you close, feeling your skin
You look into my eyes and those feelings are back, but stronger than ever
I know you're the one I wanna hold on to forever
We both smile again, nothing's better than this
Your the one for me , Ily always .

2010-12-06T18:23:00.001+08:00

Currently in taiwan inet room , finally blogging , been quite awhile.
I seriously miss singapore and miss my family and friends and lastly i miss my dearest girlfriend ! Chin Cai Yun , your missed so badly ! Just 6 more days and i can hold u in my arms again ily .

2010-11-21T11:18:00.000+08:00

Today is the 13th anniversary wif darling !
Muacks love u honey deep deep !

2010-10-28T20:33:00.002+08:00

Honey , forgive me if i ever disappointed u , forgive me if i ever made u sad , forgive me if i ever made u angry for i never mean it . ily u , care for u , miss u always , dearest u mean the most to me , your the reason i live . Ily .

Alan is currently doing his duty clerk while i am here blogging haha .
Seeing my dearest tmr , hope she is feeling better . love her ttmx

2010-10-21T00:00:00.000+08:00

Today is the date , we have been 1 year together , honey we have been through together for a year alrdy , ily honey <3

2010-08-28T01:39:00.001+08:00

Wow it's currently so late and i'm still in camp this is bullshit .
First remove my friday off den make me stay in today what more can i say , u think by just giving off is enough? u know certain days we really got important matters ?
Sigh some people just don't understand . My apologies to my girlfriend for being unable to meet and celebrate her birthday plus not meeting her today , sigh .
I love u honey

2010-08-25T21:48:00.000+08:00

Today's moon is so beautiful , full moon !
These few days seriously damn sian sigh .

2010-07-13T21:28:00.004+08:00

The most important person in my life, let's see...
I have known u since 2008 , we started of as mere friends through msn and a friend.
Slowly we became closer , i asked u to be my girlfriend on 17/06/08 but u said u needed sometime to think . 2 days later u said yes to me , i was happy :)
We had a smooth r/s at the start but a week or so later everything went haywire ,
we had misunderstanding , our r/s went rock bottom , i was close to losing u .
exactly 1 month and 1 day later u broke up with me , i was upset , i didn't know what to do . I was lost . Kept thinking what did i do wrong ?
Tried to get u back , but failed utterly months later when u chose someone else instead of me , heartbroken i was , lived in denial .
Furthermore , we had some major issue of misunderstanding . But after the air was cleared everything was alright.
Soon after months later , i enlisted in national service , life was boring not much to look forward to , but after quite some time your boyfriend broke up with u , i took the chance , and u gave us both a chance together again .
I cherished every sec , every moment i had with u .
Now i am living a life of joy , looked forward to see-ing u every weekend , i love u my honey , your the only girl i love and will ever love . Your my one and only , your perfect in my eyes , your love gives me hope , ily .

The date is 211009 !

2010-07-12T19:38:00.002+08:00

Currently in camp super sians~
Spent weekend with beloved girlfriend .
Met her only on saturday cause she was feeling unwell ><
Went bugis on saturday watch movie ~ despicable me !
Was quite nice =p
Den went central to have dinner wif mum den mrt-ed home .
Went to meet dearest mum n bro at kopitiam den went chong pang buy supper for family~
Honey , i miss u alot ! >< .

2010-07-04T20:21:00.002+08:00

Missing my girlfriend at the moment !
Been with her this entire weekend =)
Currently girlf working >.<
Hope she eaten her dinner .
Gonna fetch her later , that's all ba nth much to post baibai

2010-06-29T21:05:00.002+08:00

Back from taiwan .
Miss singapore to the max man !
First person i saw upon arrival my kawaii girlf !
Man i missed her so much ~ <3 fetched me despite working morning shift the nxt day touched !
<33 love u laasss
darling currently working , she haven't eaten T_T waiting for her to come my house soon ,
tmr going back camp den friday gonna accompany my girlf ! muacks love u !

Honey your my one and only i will only love u !
When your happy i will smile for u , when your sad i will try to cheer u up,
when your with me i can't keep my eyes away from u ,
in my eyes your the prettiest , in my heart u will always be there .
My heart only has 1 space for 1 person and that person is non other than u my beloved girlf !

2010-06-06T22:29:00.003+08:00

Hiyo people ~
Spend my weekend with my dearest girlf !
Well gonna go taiwan on thursday that's like so soon uh . ._.
Watched animes and went out with darling during the weekend uh jus watch Prince of Persia at northpoint today was not bad uh , mayb bookin out tmr if not tuesday not sure yet but one thing for sure gonna mit my beloved !
Missing her currently ~

2010-06-02T19:04:00.001+08:00

Been doing nothing much these few days camp is getting boring ~
Been watching fairy tail with my girlf during weekends =p
Next week gonna fly to taiwan for 19 days oh my gosh !
Gonna spend more time with girlf this week !
Seeing girlf moody pains my heart sigh

2010-05-25T05:25:00.000+08:00

Today woke up at like 5am . @.@ super early nidda wake up.
Didnt spend much time with bibi last week , well i booked out on sunday 5am and back in at night,
=O
Tis week friday is a vesak day yays , gonna meet bibi on friday , honey imyimyimy !

2010-05-21T20:48:00.001+08:00

I know i'm not the nicest looking guy out there ,
not the richest guy out there,
not the fittest guy out there,
not one to own a mansion or an expensive car,
not one to be able to shower u with gifts.
But beloved , all i know is i will be loving u with all my heart,
till the day i grow old and no longer live in this world,
most importantly , iloveyou.

2010-05-20T04:52:00.000+08:00

bibi , i miss u alot too .
i really wanna see u too uh .
but i know it's realli impossible to see u this week , sorry.
imy ily iny !
>: misses every moment honey .

2010-05-19T21:04:00.002+08:00

Today is a long n boring day did almost nothing the whole afternoon in camp .
Will only be booking out on sunday screw the extra man .
Bibi i miss u so much , only can see u next week ~.~
worst of all i will be going taiwan soon >: sad
lastly dearest ily <3

2010-05-02T23:04:00.001+08:00

It's been ages since i post ok i know i know . Just not much time to do it ya ~

Now at home yishun using e com while waiting for my beloved to come ~
Hungry ~ Bibi dabao food for me ~~~~~
misses and thank you bibi . loves ~

2010-03-11T08:24:00.001+08:00

WTF ! today is my fucking off day and people fucking call me ask this ask that from camp fuck u all.
U KNOW WAD IS I APPLIED FOR LEAVE FOR 2DAYS ? BIATCHES ! let me slp in peace ffs .
Later going out wit bibi liao ~ hehe

2010-03-09T14:26:00.002+08:00

Been ages since i last updated .
Today in camp alone , a.k and zh went to support the instructors in their exercise in another camp . Been tasked many impossible tasks but i just made it happen .

Life has been alright for me everything going alright except for a disappointment with my dad though . Missing someone right now ~

2009-12-04T19:54:00.002+08:00

Today i'm finally gonna update .

Life in NS seems so long still have bout a yr and a half or more to go ,
many things can happen while i'm in NS .
I live my life the way it is , no one can control it , what people want to say bout me and anything i won't utter a word to argue back .
All i know is i never regretted doing anything until now , even if i have i know it can't be helped .
When u're in trouble or in need u will finally see people's true colour , who they really are .
And also u will know who is really concern and cares bout u that's what has happened lately and i gotta cherish these people .
As their the ones that make life more meaningful to live and to look forward everyday .
Ok i shall stop here update when i'm free , meeting bibi tmr night , sadly she has to work full shift till sunday , don't tire urself out and takecare uh . Love u .

2009-12-02T15:27:00.001+08:00

Back from CGH appointment ~
Bi met me at simei mrt and accompanied me to CGH , love her muacks !
Ate breakfast at CGH b4 goin for my appointment , the indian nurse called my name wrongly and bi laffed n laffed =.=
Took my medicine for 6 mths imagine how many pills dere r =O

Went tampinese walk walk till 1pm den took cab back to camp while bi went home by bus
Bi having fever currently so worried =(

ilovemybibi !

2009-11-28T21:52:00.000+08:00

hiyooo !
currently at bibi's house , had dinner wit her and her brother , haha . i tink i have been neglecting bibi for awhile =/ sorry wun happen again , currently bibi having a nap =D

2009-11-13T19:02:00.002+08:00

Hey mann i'm back from camp ! woo !
Back home jus showered and grandpa n grandma cooked dinner for me sweet !
Ate alot gonna be fat soon damnit !
Fetching Bi from work later haha !
Maybe tomorrow gonna get something for my bro gab and mum their birthday was over n i was in camp darn it !
Ok lastly i love my grandparents mum and bro and family ! lastly not to forget my frens ! haha
Ciao blog when im free kinda bz lately =D

Ilovemybi

2009-11-07T17:10:00.001+08:00

Been super long since i update basically no time , quarrel wif family for dumb reasons etc etc .

Currently waiting for bi to finish work , was at her place yesterday and sent her to work in the morning ~

Sadly i got guard duty tmr damnit meaning nidda book in the morning -.-
Nothing much to update , well lastly 1 thing i will nvr forgive the fker tt resorted to violence against me =)

2009-10-26T10:07:00.002+08:00

sians never will i have peace .
came back from camp on saturday left house instantly major arguement accured shall not elaborate further .

went clint hse used his com while he was slpin till 8 den went causeway to have our dinner at KFC.
next day went iluma wif him . nothing much these few days .

2009-10-19T09:29:00.002+08:00

Currently mood sucks like fuxck -.-
Some things happened between mi mum n dad ~.~

Should be in my freaking camp now but i'm on mc till wednesday =O
Yesterday met Adi , Ryu , Clinton and Shawn was walking around town well Clinton and Ryu had a competition in town so me n adi went to support time toooooo baddddd they F.R.O !
No Xuan that's y they lose ? =X heh heh

They seem sooo disappointed . Ate lunch and dinner with them , while I and Clinton mrt-ed to amk and slack wif some of his fren at amk , Adi and the rest went to lan =.= , reached home at 8 plus , and Adi lost his fone while cabbing home wif ryu =O

But mi manage to call his fone and someone picked up wad so kind soul =D
The person drove to Adi place and pass it to him haha !

Boring Day today supposed to meet clinton for breakfast but he is still sleeping zzz !

2009-10-11T20:26:00.001+08:00

Just got back from camp in the morning had freaking guard duty ytd , but its ok i cleared all my guard duties haha !
Friday teh came back camp had a long talk wif him till like way over our army curfew timing haha.
Many stuff happened tis week , might nidda go for a operation if my report on my back worsens on 3 december sigh .
Well life goes on hahaha takec everyone =D

2009-10-04T16:45:00.001+08:00

Back from camp supposed to mit jasmine but she had a last min facial appointment how sadd and disappointin aww ! haha ! Tmr parade bookin in soon at 830pm , back injury gettin bad the pain is somewhat killing me ~

2009-09-26T20:42:00.004+08:00

Family has problems i know but this time is the first time seeing my family quarrel till liddat .
U know by seeing my own brother cry so badly u know how much it hurts me ?
Seeing my cousin yong cry u know how much it hurts me ?
Trust should be given to everyone , everyone deserves a second chance .
But i just don't get this shit ya know ?
I really can't take the pressure everyone is giving me ,
ns and family all coming at me like a snowball rolling non stop ,
damnit i really need a break i really do . =(
Kill me someone will ya ?

2009-09-26T19:05:00.002+08:00

Feeling slpy slpy slpy ... but i just can't get to sleep ~.~
Yong is currently making me laugh out loud ! haha !
Damn damn damn i hope i can recover anytime soon the pain is killing mua ~
Yong is currently getting scolded for not eating his dinner hahahaha ! Getting chased to eat now =x
Gab is still out not back yet ~.~
So damn bored !

2009-09-26T16:04:00.003+08:00

Xavier Goh Yixuan is officially injured =/
Old back injury back again ogoddamnshit !
Continued with training nevertheless,
Might be seeing a doctor tomorrow ,
Physical training continues for me ,
Need to improve even more on my physical =/
goddamnshit might be going overseas training =(
might not want to continue commando if he has a choice =/
life is different as before as well !

2009-09-21T17:23:00.001+08:00

Yesterday went tampinese wif cousin and her mum !
While her mum went to get her fone done , jas and me went to T1 to buy some basic top and a polo for myself at topman haha !
After dat had dinner and off we r home .
Err kinda slpy now shall let gabriel use the com while i go slp b4 my book in =/

2009-09-17T20:02:00.003+08:00

Today was supposed to meet my mum at her work place but was too lazy to meet her so didn't go to find her haha !
Met Emily sis at bugis instead ! Been a loooonggg time since i last saw her . Ate dinner and had a drink later on went to her work place to take a look wow nice environment i gotta say heh heh . Hm gonna meet her soon to come to watch phobia 2 ya hehe !
Tomorrow V3lo a.k.a Jason birthday ! But might not be going his chalet see how it goes ya .
Mum wanna talk to me tonight wonder what she wants to talk about hmm ... haha .
Man been eating very little lately damnit stomach just doesn't get hungry lately =(
Sat going malaysia to shop , sunday going jas hse to stay ? lol not comfirm yet~
Monday night booking in ! Goddamnshit so fast !
Time to stop here ciao people !

Flashback keep flashing through my head goddamnit !

2009-09-17T11:47:00.001+08:00

Have been anime-ing for sometime thanks to dumb brother gabriel making me addicted to it . Going to find mum at her work place at j8 later n mayb miting emily sis at bugis provided she wakes up early ! haha ns startin soon on monday shiiiittsz !

2009-09-16T07:14:00.001+08:00

Yesterday went swimming with zhiwei at yck swimming complex . Followed by our late lunch at nanyang poly lol . didnt eat dinner was feeling kinda full .
Currently watching anime kateikyoushi-hitman-reborn ! the small gina hitman is freaking cute lol lol !

2009-09-15T10:16:00.002+08:00

Ok i am sooo pissed off !
First yong fking takes mc and downloads everyday causing me to lag with my computer fucking cheebye .
Now he is converting with the lappy with my connection and lagging me again nbcb .

2009-09-13T20:02:00.000+08:00

OK ADI IS FORCED TO WATCH G FORCE WITH ME ! HE IS SO PISSED LOL ! SAYING IT IS CHILDISH HAHAHA !

Today met zhiwei and went to orchard to get his fone back from repair but sadly now its still undergoing repair wasted trip ya hahahaha!

Ate dinner and now am at his house stayin overnight , jesus goddamnit i got sunburn on my forehead so horribleeee and unsightly !

2009-09-11T14:29:00.000+08:00

First day of my holiday !
Gonna meet Jy at amk hub now to catch the movie final destination wow it has been like mths n mths since i met him LOL ! Meeting up with people i havent had a chance to meet lately haha !
AW ! ADI IS GONNA GO BACK INDO FOR QUITE SOME TIME =/ TAKEC YA ! miss ya

2009-09-11T10:46:00.000+08:00

P.O.P LO !

YESTERDAY DID 24KM route march all suffered from abrasion and blisters !
Couldn't even march properly LOL ! After parade took fotos and stuff aww many getting posted to other unit and course well gonna miss u guys keep in contact ya ! will upload fotos when i get hold of dem =D

2009-09-08T15:38:00.000+08:00

Ok going to book in in 2 hrs plus plus time .
Just gonna have a short nap before booking in ciao .

2009-09-08T07:05:00.000+08:00

Ok i am back at home but gonna book in tonite .
Had a high fever hitting 39.1 degrees , head was feeling so heavyyyy totally felt horrible .
Can't take a long mc as i have my passing out parade on thursday .
Sorry to my parents and grandma for raising my voice at them but i just felt so bad i jus needed some sleep and not some lectures .

2009-09-06T18:45:00.000+08:00

Okkkk was out in the afternoon till now .
Went karaoke wif aunt and cousins . Only yong was singing hahahaha !
After hearing him sing for like 2 hours went sembawang shopping centre to shop around den went yishun to eat our dinner ! Keeping tis post short cause kinda tired gonna slp for 2 hrs before booking in ! ciao people !

2009-09-05T14:30:00.000+08:00

Didn't post for quite awhile , went army open house yesterday was forced by my sgt . Damnit basically wasted time there and took a ride back home thanks to chao shun =D
Today was my SoC test but i took mc in the morning and didn't go , was just too sleepy , couldn't meet jeremy and company today . Tomorrow yong asked me to go kbox wif him at safra just gonna go with him and entertain him .
Next thursday pop ! wooo finally gonna have a break for awhile =D

2009-08-23T16:52:00.001+08:00

Man gonna booook in soooon !
Today was god damn boring slept at home and used com only didn't go out haha .
Gab is done with sore throat and flu aww , get well ya .

Had dinner with granny , bro and cousin and lastly aunt . Just feel abit sick can't seem to eat much .
Headed home first after finishin dinner while the rest are dere still eating and crapping around ha .

2009-08-22T18:00:00.000+08:00

Ok i can't do anything but surf the net , use msn and lastly blog cause dumb cousin yong sheng is fucking downloading with his lappy causing me to have massive delay and lags when i watch video and play my games fish sticks ! Field camp on monday till saturday night zomg ! what a killer . Movie-ing with gab mayb yong and jas next week that's all tatas .

2009-08-21T22:17:00.002+08:00

Back from camp sianzation srsly nxt week field camp @.@ had fever in camp and got IV-ed fking needle . nth much bye gonna slp soon haha .
On 16 Aug u left us . U will always be remembered in our heart and memories .
The past we had . The memories can never be erased . God Damnit can't face up to the truth that your gone for good .

2009-08-16T18:43:00.000+08:00

Yoooo somehow i was allowed to book out for this week n nxt week but after that i cant book out for like 8 days woots ! Went jasmine hse ytd night watch tv den off to bed , couldnt send clinton to the airport in the morning was asleep and didnt see his msg @.@ anyways takec bro see u soon ! Morning bored n bordom kills ! Lost my boots left it in the taxi ytd geezes went back camp to get my leather boots den went back jas place used com awhile den ate lunch followed by homeing to amk bye people takec all !

2009-08-10T19:02:00.000+08:00

Hehhhh ! Bummers suppose to meet clinton and co. in the end all sleeping @.@
Met Alvin and went to buy my ipod casing , followed by eating kfc suppose to watch movie but i nidda book in and it would have been kinda rush ~.~
Reached home at 6pm or so was told going to eat dinner wif jas and her family but yong is lazy and cause of both our field camp making us unable to book out for quite long , yong has to stay in till 2nd week while i nidda stay in most likely for 2 weeks @.@ sianzation .

2009-08-10T00:04:00.003+08:00

Sianzation joshua lee is officially in boys home for 3 weeks b4 further sentencing .
Bro takec man i will be dere when u have ur sentencing miss u a great lot wun forget a bro like u .

2009-08-09T17:33:00.000+08:00

Firstly i would like to say happy birthday to singapore n a belated happy birthday to zhi wei !
Today woke up went to pray at orchard wif aunt and granny , den off i went to get my ipod touch .
Met clinton , alvin and shaun for lunch and now i am at home uploading my itouch not much today as i am just too lazy and tired to go out with them the whole day =/

2009-08-08T07:58:00.000+08:00

Back from camp yesterday night .
Woo won best platoon award haha ! Everyone leg is hurting from the freaking 500m leopard crawl n 12km route march ~.~ Tomorrow meeting aussie asshole nicholas to buy our ipod touch =D Pay coming in tomorrow again . Today don't think imma go out haha , josh in hostel for 3 weeks after that for further sentencing . Mannnnn this is so not cool , bummers .
Next 2 weeks no chance to book out field camp is on , damnit field camp just utterly sucks to the core .
P.o.P in 1 mth =D hehe . ok imma update when i'm free .

2009-08-01T08:43:00.000+08:00

Yesterday had my pathetic parents engagement day in my camp , only called my mum though (got my reason)=D
Had brunch wif mum at white sands before going to my camp ate and chit chatted . After our brunch cabbed to camp den my my sgt had a conversation wif me .

Sgt : your sister ?
Me : no ?
Sgt : recruit goh i tell u how many times not to bring your girlf still bring !
Me : its my mum le . zzz
Sgt : stun 5s den let us in . lol !

The talk was boring wasted my precious time @_@ .
After that mum and i cabbed to fareast where we parted ways as i went train to cousin jas house haha .
Granny brought food over thanks =D Fell asleep as i was too tired by the time i woke up woola it's already 8pm sharp haha . Ate my dinner and watched tv while chatted wif jas =/

Today going back amk plus plus meeting clint later . Tomorrow gonna be book in day sianzation ! damn
nothing else to say sorry that my post and life is boring lol !

2009-07-29T20:06:00.003+08:00

First time posting in camp lol ! suppose to be doing admin for my staff but here i am blogging hope i won't get caught =O ! Slept 9.5 hrs for 3 days thanks to my crazy insane training but survived , tomorrow gonna book out miting jie loong bro at mrt for some talk den friday ' parents meeting session ' in camp free on weekends anyone wanna go out text or call me ! takec all miss ya all sorry to those i couldnt meet up cause really too busy pass month til now haha ! And cousin takec lots lots !

2009-07-25T11:56:00.004+08:00

Was stuck in camp till today morning , man some people just loves to report sick just cos they have guard duty when there is book out , in the end i had to cover that someone geez . Did guard duty wif my buddy yesterday , had macdonalds , chili crab and cereal prawns while doing guard duty lol ! next week thursday book out finally something to look forward to =D takec people !

Cousin Jasmine ! cheer up ya ! =/

2009-07-19T11:25:00.003+08:00

Lol today is the day imma gonna book in ._. Jas came to amk in the morning but left to JB for so called shopping wif my aunt aww ! But sadly she said she doesn't want to go haha ! Hope to meetup wif her soon 2 weeks time field camp cant book out for a week or so @@ I need a long book out time seems so short out here ~

2009-07-18T16:30:00.002+08:00

Was suppose to meet up with jas but canceled so homed after book out damn so bored just chit chatting with yong haha .
This few days in camp massive heavy workout was close to breaking down my leg freaking hurts from 4.5km and more runs per day zomg ! and the punishment we get is killing our platoon @.@
Tomorrow friday gonna book out as having life firing on sunday to tuesday . Guard duty in 2 weeks time luckily its not on a weekend Phew !
Everyday life in my new platoon is boring occasionally return to my old platoon feel more lively and more sense of belonging . tsk tsk .
Well time in national service to survive u need a goal and mainly a motivation to keep yourself going without these u are sure to give up =/ always remember people there are always friends around u they are always there to give u a helping hand =D ok shall end here free will update =D

Tag when u pass by peeps =D

2009-07-12T15:31:00.003+08:00

Okk just woke up from my slp haha . nothing much today uber bored and also ... haha .
Hearing those songs again makes me think bout the times we had before but its already over .

Now is your time to die
We've gathered here to say goodbye
No more you'll cry
No reason left for you to fight
Feel pain no more
Emotions never felt before
Where do we go, we go she'll never know

Holding on to you
To keep from falling
Your eyes are closing now
Another chapter's ending

Hard times we always saw
There's nothing left of you no more
Fear has no place, no place
Cover her face

Holding on to you
To keep from falling
Your eyes are closing now
Another chapter's ending
This is our last goodbye
Goodbye!

This is our time tonight

Holding on to you
cover her face

Holding on to you
To keep from falling

Holding on to you
To keep from falling

Your eyes are closing now
Another chapter's ending
This is our last goodbye
Goodbye!
This is our time tonight
Goodbye!
This is our last goodbye

人生不在乎天长地久,只在乎曾经拥有

It's not that i don't cherish the chances but it seems i don't even have a chance ..

2009-07-12T08:15:00.003+08:00

Okeh i don't think i can mit my ite frens later as i haven slept a wink yet !
Sry people just exhausted >.<
Was out wif cousins at compass in afternoon , jas had a hair cut haha hope she doesn't regret =x
Clint walked wif me and jas to rivervall mall so i can return my crappy ljs uniform but the freaking boss was not there screw it ! Den cousin bused home while i n clint went to cine to find josh , rui hong and company crapped abit and i went home , clint followed den tonned with him till now freaking tired gonna go back amk soon den its nights off for me haha !
Tomorrow book in aww time flies so fast !

Cherish every moment u have with someone u love , and wish her all the best as see-ing her happy is all u would want , loving someone does not mean being for that someone , just wish she has a happy life . Be happy for her when she is happy .

2009-07-10T22:43:00.002+08:00

Well i'm back to update once in awhile ya ! Met ryu in the afternoon , adi came shortly followed by clint , josh , rh and zhenyu haha ! Tomorrow returning my ljs uniform not much for tmr i tink haha ciao !

When i say i don't mind and don't really care , i actually do . The pain in my heart can never be taken away .

2009-07-10T06:40:00.002+08:00

Omg i was out yesterday night Booked Out !
Didnt think i could make it @.@ but luckily i did well my from physical test =O
This few days in ns macham become saikang warrior , everyday mop floor shift chairs shift table =.= i dun tink commandos are gonna hold the Red Barret , we are macham holding the red buckets for moping geez .
Alright monday shifting platoon aww nidda split from my 2 buddys @.@ damnit ! Wee Ming my buddy should be doing saikang in camp now fish it so damn unfair man , he scored all gold for his physical test but he can't book out that's so totally bullshit .
Gonna meet Adi later on together with Ryu =D

2009-07-05T08:23:00.002+08:00

Ok ns training was tiring .
Finally could book out i pass my ippt test wif an injured wrist and half recovered ankle =D
Was told imma gotta change platoon on friday fish sticks my bunk mates half gonna change aww miss u guys when tt happens !
Yesterday met deng ling mei mei and wei ting at j8 as usual deng ling is late for like 30 mins fish sticks ! What to do her usual pattern .
Watched Ice Age 3 ! After that went long john to eat chit chatted and off we went .
I mrted to orchard to meet cousins and aunt at Taka walked around den ate and off we were home on the way to the carpark a fking ah gua said disgusting things at me _|_

2009-06-28T08:11:00.002+08:00

Woke up super early had only 7 hrs of sleep !
Ns screwed me making me wake up wif 7 hrs of slp ~.~
ZhiWei miting me later to pei me go out in the afternoon mum and family come to fetch me out for breakfast !
Later late in afternoon mayb meeting deng ling mei mei =D
At night miting chit whee and teh to cab to camp book in at 10pm @_@
Next book out will be saturday !
Takec peeps =)

2009-06-27T15:17:00.001+08:00

ok finally booked out ! many stuff happened in camp !
screwed some losers and had fun !
Tmr night book in wtf siansian !
Tmr mitting deng ling mei haha ok nothing to post as the fkin camp officer said if we post bout camp we are dead lol !

2009-06-11T10:39:00.003+08:00

Yesterday ate at restaurant buffet at changi airport wif auntie grandma and brother and cousin .
Yong sheng vomited thrice ! LOL ! i had a tummyache too much ice cream @@ .
Today gonna go ns my last post till i can book out miss me kay people =/
time sure go fast ns so fast well i tink i will be out fast too ! Those studying study hard and play hard ! Those working good luck with your work !
Takec all ! Do tag while i am away =x

2009-06-08T19:40:00.002+08:00

National service on friday miss me do tag while i am away , book out in 3 weeks time super boredom . Tomorrow movie wif yong , gab , pris , zw and mayb jas ? tired man ~

ily but i let u go .

2009-06-04T14:08:00.001+08:00

lost all my contacts do sms me to gimme ur contacts !
currently rotting arnd in the net wif xinglei jiejie =D

2009-06-04T09:57:00.001+08:00

Okeh couldn't sleep ytd .
Gab is feeling sad and kinda emo aww . cheer up bro ~
Seeing my brother so sad aww doesn't feed right ,
couldn't really slp was wide awake think i slpt for 45 mins or so only @@

2009-06-03T16:24:00.000+08:00

Ok life is always unfair screw it i shall not elaborate what happened to me sheesh .

U think i am in the wrong i got nth to say .

2009-05-31T17:55:00.003+08:00

Ok haven't been updating lately , cause kinda lazy and not much time .
2 more weeks and i am gonna be in ns miss me kay ?
Tmr suppose to have outing wif emily sis and others but i nidda change my bank acc number for ns
and also i nidda do many stuff . sorry sis .
Aww little time out here till national service bummers !

2009-05-27T09:56:00.002+08:00

Super tired jio-ed ryu and zy out for kfc but they didn't want to aww . Gonna be another boring day for me again i guess .

The sky we saw that day , the scarlet sky , do u remember it ?
We exchanged our promises surrounded by the summer wind .
Behind that forced smile , i hide my extended shadows .
So i pretended not to notice it , and decided to playback .
Waiting for the depressing news from you , those empty nights those dawns i thought would never come, i knew it all .
Embracing those promises i couldn't fulfill , it will never happen again , together we shall not walk .

We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

2009-05-26T12:16:00.003+08:00

Anyways forogt bout tis grats to my dumb hao lian and sibei bhb brother gabriel for getting first in his audi compey wtf n lvl still play audi wan die sibo ? lol

the pubor in the centre is my bhb brother

on the far right the loser face =D

2009-05-26T09:58:00.002+08:00

okok i received a haircut yesterday , yes u heard haircut ! ok super short until i cant believe it .
Damn ns sucks man why must we cut such short hair sianssss.
Yesterday met joshua the close to botak fellow hehe same as me wakakaaka and clint the slope hair boy ! We met at amk hub and walked around went to a kopitiam slack for awhile , clint has received a warning from the doctor if he does not quit smoking soon he will lose his voice , well cause of smoking he has been having sore throat , cough blah blah blah and he still smokes reds wtf . Joshua was scolding him lol had a drink den ordered chicken wing and fish n chip wow the western there is woot nice nice super nice haha . Shawn and co came lateron around 830pm we left as clint nidda go jurong , josh bused home wif shawn and co while i am the onli one stayin at sengk bused alone wif a no batt fone no music no nothing , was about to fall sleep until a indian freakin sit beside me not being a racist but the smell is omg couldn't sleep can ._. ok now my hair is shorter than jason sians .
Today not going out i guess haha .

2009-05-23T10:54:00.003+08:00

Ok went shopping with mummy , but she smsed me saying pls wear jeans and proper shirt and pls do something bout ur hair , fk go out also so mafan so i had to find a suitable shirt n jeans weather so hot still jeans burn can ? den nid to style hair wtf zzz freakin retarded can just for going orchard that's my mother for u . After preparing was like late ? So change the time of meeting her to 2.30 but i was still late met her at 3pm freak first time in my life i am late can ! Den went to eat lunch wif her after tt from raffles place trained to orchard .

Bought 2 jeans den she bought 2 shirt for me and so and so for and blamed me for burning a hole in her pocket , she spent a close 600 on me WAKAKAKa i didn't ask for so many stuff ok she forced it on me hehe . Mrted to sengkang den lrt to compassvale , granny delivered dinner i saw yong on cab fast asleep booking in i guess aww , today going to jasmine grandma place.

i reach for that big sky , i believe in that one tomorrow .

2009-05-21T14:36:00.002+08:00

Watashiwa kawaii neh xuan desu x33333

Ok i shall stop tis nonsense of trying to act cute , ok was pokemon-ing for awhile , dun tink i am childish ok childhood memories ! Later mayb going for a movie i duno yong just called yst saying he had a fever so hope he recovers =D
Jas has dance in the afternoon bummers , Gab smsed me early in the morning saying hoho nxt sat den parents meeting session screw him pls ';....;' !
Tmr shopping wit mummy meeting her at orchard time not yet comfirm alright tts all people

2009-05-20T22:00:00.002+08:00

Was feeling super tired and sick today woke up and went back to bed was sweating in a air con room ? Woke up later on at 4 pm feeling all giddy .

After awhile used com for awhile hmm pretty boring day today , tmr mayb watching movie wif yong and gab? not yet comfirmed alright that's all i know my blog is boring sorry people ahaha

Being with the one u love is always the best , so no matter what happens cherish the relationship u have and hold dearly to , if u love him/her no problem is impossible to solve .

2009-05-19T14:24:00.001+08:00

Soooo wad if metallica started metal i just love seeing u self pwn urself so yea !

` Xuan says:
AHAHAA
` Xuan says:
but
` Xuan says:
u gotta admit tis
` Xuan says:
for screamo
` Xuan says:
alesana
` Xuan says:
owns all
Theodora doesn't want to go to Hong Kong. Why can't they just respect that? says:
okay
Theodora doesn't want to go to Hong Kong. Why can't they just respect that? says:
i admit that
` Xuan says:
OK
` Xuan says:
IM GONNA SS IT

2009-05-19T14:19:00.002+08:00

Theresa just got self pwned in a arguement wif me WAKAKAKA.

` Xuan says:
ALESANA PWNS ALL
Theodora doesn't want to go to Hong Kong. Why can't they just respect that? says:
METALLICA IS KING
` Xuan says:
NO
` Xuan says:
ALESANA TRASHES
Theodora doesn't want to go to Hong Kong. Why can't they just respect that? says:
SCREAMO BORING
` Xuan says:
U NOE IT
Theodora doesn't want to go to Hong Kong. Why can't they just respect that? says:
METALLICA STARTED METAL OKAY
` Xuan says:
SCREAMO PWNS
Theodora doesn't want to go to Hong Kong. Why can't they just respect that? says:
WHAT DID ALESANA DO
` Xuan says:
ALESANA > METALLICA
Theodora doesn't want to go to Hong Kong. Why can't they just respect that? says:
PLEASE
Theodora doesn't want to go to Hong Kong. Why can't they just respect that? says:
METALLICA < ALESANA (self pwnt)
` Xuan says:
PWN
Theodora doesn't want to go to Hong Kong. Why can't they just respect that? says:
WHAT I TYPING
Theodora doesn't want to go to Hong Kong. Why can't they just respect that? says:
LOL
` Xuan says:
YEA
` Xuan says:
U GT PWNED U ADMITTED IT URSELF ALESANA > METALLICA =D

2009-05-19T14:19:00.001+08:00

Theresa just got self pwned in a arguement wif me WAKAKAKA.

` Xuan says:
ALESANA PWNS ALL
Theodora doesn't want to go to Hong Kong. Why can't they just respect that? says:
METALLICA IS KING
` Xuan says:
NO
` Xuan says:
ALESANA TRASHES
Theodora doesn't want to go to Hong Kong. Why can't they just respect that? says:
SCREAMO BORING
` Xuan says:
U NOE IT
Theodora doesn't want to go to Hong Kong. Why can't they just respect that? says:
METALLICA STARTED METAL OKAY
` Xuan says:
SCREAMO PWNS
Theodora doesn't want to go to Hong Kong. Why can't they just respect that? says:
WHAT DID ALESANA DO
` Xuan says:
ALESANA > METALLICA
Theodora doesn't want to go to Hong Kong. Why can't they just respect that? says:
PLEASE
Theodora doesn't want to go to Hong Kong. Why can't they just respect that? says:
METALLICA <> (self pwnt)
` Xuan says:
` Xuan says:
PWN
Theodora doesn't want to go to Hong Kong. Why can't they just respect that? says:
WHAT I TYPING
Theodora doesn't want to go to Hong Kong. Why can't they just respect that? says:
LOL
` Xuan says:
YEA
` Xuan says:
U GT PWNED U ADMITTED IT URSELF ALESANA > METALLICA =D

2009-05-19T08:35:00.002+08:00

Ok today was jus not my day fuck u Zhen Yu !
Bastard child i sleeping so soundly suddenly fone rang fish forgot to silent mode den was woked up by that bastard child . He said he coming find me at sengkang wtf ? i am half awake and half asleep @@ ! well was using com and listening to music while waiting for him till he smsed me saying he is at pungol beach cause he fell asleep in the bus ! nerded . Den his last msg was :
Got gal got gal hot gal gal in bus wit me ! My age de !!! Oh hor pon sch . =.= this utterly describes him Zhen Yu a.k.a ah wang ! now while i want to blog this up he said his wans to ask for her number but he shy haih this type of people also will shy meh ! teehee

2009-05-18T15:31:00.001+08:00

Fish sticks movie6.net has been shut down due to legal issues fook ! There goes the website where i watch all my high quality movies =/

2009-05-18T12:23:00.003+08:00

Okk just woke up was damn tired yesterday .

Yesterday joshua and clinton put me jetplane suppose to be going to anchorvale cc to swim and plae slide LOL ! but both of dem were half dead in the afternoon n told me to rest n slp act all caring but reason is they wanted to slp fish them !
Dinnered wif jas and her family , reached home watched tv awhile den fell asleep tired tired tired and now it is raining super heavily !
Friday mum gonna bring me shopping like wow and saturday nidda go to my brother gabriel skool for parents meeting session -.- u should be able to guess his results since i am the one collecting it LOL ! good luck for ur n lvl u slacker LOL

And paul is emoing over a girl tsk tsk .

2009-05-17T20:40:00.002+08:00

Tonned wif Ryu and BenBen ytd freaking tired rched home ate maggie and like slept for onli 6 hrs @@ going to slp soon bahs heaps tired =/

2009-05-15T20:55:00.000+08:00

This is how noob bullies me .

♥ It's like, we're meant to be says:
deny see =/
♥ It's like, we're meant to be says:
i pity your gf
` Xuan says:
why ?
` Xuan says:
wa
` Xuan says:
lao
` Xuan says:
liddat
` Xuan says:
sae me
` Xuan says:
i
♥ It's like, we're meant to be says:
okok
♥ It's like, we're meant to be says:
._.
` Xuan says:
=(
` Xuan says:
i noe i single...
` Xuan says:
no nid
` Xuan says:
liddat sae me...
` Xuan says:
people got feelings one u noe
` Xuan says:
...
` Xuan says:
haih'
` Xuan says:
i am not made of metal u noe...
♥ It's like, we're meant to be says:
you cannot lie to me
` Xuan says:
my tears are sour u noe ...
♥ It's like, we're meant to be says:
but you listen metal
♥ It's like, we're meant to be says:
AHHAAHAH
` Xuan says:
NO LINK
` Xuan says:
FOOK U
♥ It's like, we're meant to be says:
is saltly !

Msn di siao siao wif each other LOL

2009-05-15T20:22:00.002+08:00

Okay went ryu's place slack arnd den adi met us at plaza ate kfc was eating halfway when someone sms me ! saying she is sad :x tsk tsk went home pei her chat on msn aiyoyo ! den fell asleep till 6 plus woke up using com again . noob cheer up lahs =x Teehee LOL !

2009-05-15T08:35:00.002+08:00

Ok . I am bright awake thanks to jolene freaking morning fone calls ! FCUK i nid my slp pls T_T

Went to eat breakfast prata it is =D wif jas's mum den walked home finding ryu and adi later mayb teehee ! Cousin having steamboat and imma gonna skip dinner cause i am starting to put on weight! Fish sticks how can this be ! haha ! okeh that's all byebyes !

2009-05-14T22:58:00.002+08:00

Ok i am not dumb and i got it all .
Some people still take me as a fool maybe u are not kidding or faking it but how can i assure ?
I do not want to take such a big risk again now ready to do it all over again .
It's crazy , it's heart wrenching nobody knows how i feel people judge me without even knowing me.
But i can't stop them can i ? I live wif a conscious inside me but do u ? Only u know yourself .
This life i have had never always been good , only close ones knows what i am going through but some don't even know and try to assume and think they know everything .
Who has seen me down and really don't feel like getting back once i have fallen ? Only few so if your haven't been through the worst don't think u are going through hell cause u have not even tasted hell itself .
Adi u asked me a question and i shall tell u the answer now right here indefinitely without a doubt the answer is a no not a yes ! Brother thanks for being there whenever i need someone to talk to man .
Normally i tok to cousin jas when i am down but sometimes don't wanna trouble her yea even though she is an idiot at times , she can be serious when the time comes haha .

True friends how many can u have ? Yea i know u must be thinking am i a good fren ? i dun go arnd backstabbing ppl and stuff okeh ? that i can assure u .
Jie loong in camp , some frens in poly and stuff sigh , seriously life can sometimes go damn down but we have to find ways to bring it back up , at least true frens last till the end i shall end here kinda tired and got stuff going through my head now but i have made up my mind adi thanks =D

2009-05-14T22:02:00.002+08:00

Today was super tiring woke up at 10 plus den went to eat lunch with jas's mum . After that homed used com for like 15 mins n slept till 5 don't know why i feel so tired these few days .

Cousin went TM wif Brenda , came home at like 7 plus , well she seems super tired today used com to update and off she is to bed no one to entertain me =( sad ! okays that's all byebye

2009-05-13T12:33:00.001+08:00

Jasmine cousin ! u idiot ! Good luck for today's paper =D hehehe u can do it !

进一步或退一步结局一样是未知数
被羡慕也被忌妒当我的手被你握住
想起当初如何被守护嚐尽了甜头也吃过了苦
翻着回忆不断地阅读我们付出如此投入

我告诉自己无论如何不许哭
被你放弃不是最痛的输
也许对你温柔拥抱还有贪图
我已准备觉悟

我告诉自己无论如何不许哭
因为至少我们曾经被祝福
如果留下伤口要微笑着康復
我应该满足我非常满足

想起当初如何被守护嚐尽了甜头也吃过了苦
翻着回忆不断地阅读我们付出如此投入

我告诉自己无论如何不许哭
被你放弃不是最痛的输
也许对你温柔拥抱还有贪图
我已准备觉悟

我告诉自己无论如何不许哭
因为至少我们曾经被祝福
如果留下伤口要微笑着康復
我应该满足我非常满足

In life what do u regret ? For me it's something i regret till now , so peeps out there don't ever do something u would forever regret .
In

2009-05-12T10:22:00.006+08:00

Wow i am awake at 10 plus miracle normally will pig arnd more haha !
Can't believe cousin was mugging for history at night ytd good luck hope u 'pass' heh heh .
Going find emily later and go back ys collect stuff den come back to jas's hse yea =D .

Some fotos from puggol plaza ytd .

Okeh damn tired of clicking and uploading 1 by 1 so 1 last pic of a idiot who loves to act cute tsk tsk .

2009-05-11T18:51:00.001+08:00

Okeh b4 i forget and get nagged by jasmine when she wakes up from her slp n happen to see my blog ! Here it is thanks for editing the fotos happy ? i noe u mus be smiling when u see this haha ! =D