Why why am i so dumb .
Sigh . I didnt mean those words . really .
I can't live without u . without u my life is really nothing .
i really hope wad u said was jus to spite me .
I'm begging u , without u my life will hit rock bottom .
i really wan to spend my life and every second of my time with u .
take care of u , be there for u whenever u need someone .
i really really do .
u mean the world to me .
your my everything .
I wanna have those times when we watch movies , hold hands together , tease each other , pretend to be angry with each other . going to the zoo , seeing your favourite elephant . hug u to sleep with scrump with us . sigh .
u mean that much to me every second i spent with u i will never forget . ily.

I'm back after much thinking .
I finally thought of it .
If making a wrong move here , i know i will definitely regret and be sorry bout it .
Though i'm smiling my heart is crying , i think you might be suffering alot too .
I'm telling myself i will be happy much happier .
But my heart tells me i'm lying to it and doesn't want to listen.
So the truth is , your still loved really .

I have pressured u too much .
I guess it's my fault ,
damnit i'm real sorry .
I will give u some time to cool down .
Ultimately i know i have broken your trust and your heart , guess ur sad and disappointed at me right now , i only have myself to blame .
When u finally cool down feel better and can give me a chance to talk to u , do let me know , love u deeply . Remember to eat and tc of ur health .

Today when i saw u , i so wanted to say something to u , so wanna talk to u .
I really missed u , really rather be the one suffering than u , pains me to know your upset .
If only if only i could take your pain and suffering away from u and put it upon me .
My love is for u is just love , it can never be explained .
Even if u choose to go through everything by yourself i will always be there even it means lurking in the shadows i will support u from anywhere i am at .
I told u before u are never alone i will be with u no matter what , you let me know what it means to truly love someone , to want to do anything for her , your that girl.
Your the one i look upon perfectly , i hope u get well soon . ily

Sigh .
Finished duty at 830.
First went to buy food and went down to look for u but i guess god just likes to make a joke out of me .
How how someone teach me , i really need u.
Like how a child needs her mother , your my everything.
i really wan to be with u ,
touch my heart and swear to god ,
i love u and i really need u.
Hope u get well soon , take care of your health.
My perfect sky is torn.

Today is gonna be a long day for me .
Having duty soon ~,~
I know your going through alot right now , many things are happening unexpectedly
What happened ? Let me know what happened exactly .
If i did anything wrong or not up to expectation u can let me know .
I know i might not show u concern at times , but the fact is i really do care and concern about u .
Really .
I know i text u some harsh words , i'm sorry about it i truely am .
Sincerly touching the bottom of my heart , ily .

Gonna wait for my shift for duty .
Today not meeting dearest cuz of duty ._.
sigh damn sad.


Am i treating u badly? i wonder >: